Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Seminary Scholarship

Wow how nice would it be to receive a seminary scholarship or any financial aid for seminary. This would help out so much for the fact that I am in need of some finances to help pay for seminary. I still have to pay the school that I going right now, Reformed Theological Seminary, money and I am not able to continue until I pay for last semester. All I really want to do in life right now is to go to school and learn more about the Lord and then to be able to teach His Word to others and show and be a doer of His Word and talk about how He has change my life for the better. Just knowing that He is my Savior and that I have everlasting life and Him. At this point in my life some times I feel as if I'm not going to be able to continue with school because it seems as if a door has almost open for me and then all of a sudden it closes right in front of me. Or sometimes the wall that is up it just will not come down no matter or how hard I try. That is why I am trust and knowing that the Lord will make a way somehow.

I know that the Lord has lead me to go to Reformed Theological Seminary for a reason. I know he would not have lead me to go to this school and have such a burning desire to learn and to gain knowledgeable about Him just to all of a sudden not make a way for me to continue. I mean His word even says "my people are destroyed of lack of knowledge" (Hosea 4:6). It's one thing just to have knowledge but for me I need to be a doer of His Word. My heart is set on seeking after Him and it hurts my heart so much when I'm not able to learn about God the way I know He wants me to. I mean some times I have a feeling of "Lord I just want You to just to go ahead and take me out of this world because to me if I'm not doing Your will the way I believe You are calling me to do it, then what am I really here for. Why am I here on this earth? I know it's not just to fail or to always have my hopes up and to see what You want me to do with the life You have given me and then just to have You close the door as soon as it opens. I mean God I trying to walk the path that You have laid out for me. God I need your help so bad right now. I know I'm venting right now but this has been pressing so hard on my heart the last few weeks that I needed to go ahead in let it out some kind of way. So this is my outlet right now.

That is way I feel a seminary scholarship, or monetary blessing from anyone is a blessing. Something I learn from my grandfather, my mother, and my family just in generally. "Ever penny counts". I started to think about what this really means, because I still to this day bend down and pick up ever penny that I see. Even penny adds up without that one cent, one would not be able to make a dollar they would just have 99 cents and still fall short of a dollar. Rather its a dollar or one hundred dollars. Without that penny you would still an up short of want you needed to make it a whole dollar. So if anyone ever wants to give me a penny or 32,000 dollars for Seminary I thank God for you and all that you have done just to bless me with the funds to help me continue with my studies at seminary so I can do the Lords work.